Through the Looking Glass

So I’ve got my first class in about a month and I’m very nervous.  There’s a competition at school tonight, most schools have something on the weekends to keep students on campus, or at least to try.  They’ve got some singing competition and I was suppose to meet C there.  Her sister and I go to the same university.  I feel like I’m not allowed to attend tonight considering she burned me; even though it’s my school not hers.  Plus I’m not one for school sponsored events, so the odds of me showing up at all would have been slim anyway.  As well as if I don’t show C and her sister will probably keep an eye out for me the whole night.  So if I can at least make her nervous and keep her on edge, it’s worth not going; because the anticipation of pain is worse than the pain its self.  I still feel different today, so my new view on life wasn’t a temporary moment of insanity, or I guess this is my new sanity.  I haven’t been reading my usual news sites for days, so maybe the change has been a while coming, and just needed that little push.  I figure I’ve got a week to fix all my school problems.  I really want to get a book published more now than ever before.  C and her sister both want to be published authors, so if I could get a best seller… I would just love to see their faces, when they found that out.  Even better would be to do a signing here at the bookstore and god it would be wonderful if they showed up to get their books signed… that would be heaven.  I know revenge is petty, but just having C know that she missed out on something big would be nice closure.