C and Not Me

So I emailed C’s sister and you know it was one of those things that maybe I shouldn’t have done.  I figured all ties would just get broken anyway, and I want to make sure she was okay.  If I couldn’t maybe she could.  Instead both of them blocked me on facebook.  This of course of was after she sent me an email saying that she would look into it, but instead I wanted to respond back and found the blocking.  She’s like this is not like her and that she would look into it.  I must have done something so horrible, just to get dropped like this.  Her sister even seemed optimistic that we might even still have a chance.  I almost considered it and then I went to click on her profile to reply… link forwarded to my own page.  Gee, I feel like pure shit.  I’m mad that I wasted all this time on her and that I put really important things off for her, but I’m also sad that not only was this other guy she broke up not good enough for her… neither was I.  I know I’m charming and I can lie with ease when need be, but I’ve never used to them to manipulate people.  Now I’m actually considering it,  for the first time in my life I understand guys who just sleep around and dont care about the people they actually hurt.  Women are just the same.  I was such a good guy and this whole has changed me.  I’m not the same person that I was yesterday, hell I don’t even want the same things as yesterday.  What I do want is to shove my success up those two aholes ass’s.  I was so worried about making a good impression, C must have told her sister something so horrible that I was like a threat to their safety.  Honestly I think that’s what it was that maybe she said something along those lines like she just slept with me to get rid of me or something.  That I was horrible or something about me was.  Sometimes I want to be successful in life for me, sometimes it's cause I want to rub it in peoples faces… this is one of those times.  I could become a monk after this encounter, it was that bad.  I will honestly say that I’m going to be completely celibate from now on, and if I ever have sex again it will be when I’m married.  Either that or I lose some weight gain a lot of muscle, and bang anything with a vagina in sight.  Today I’m different and while I’m stronger than yesterday, I’m not sure if the old me would have wanted to be friends with the new me.  What could be so horrible?