Strange Evening Indeed

So I talked to D(old friend and he’s male) and I talked about old times.  He’s not a close friend he use to be, but then he said something bad when he thought I wasn’t in the room and I don’t exactly trust him anymore.  I guess you could say I stay close for a chance at revenge.  I also spent sometime looking people up on facebook.  The nice thing is since the privacy settings changed there’s so much info that’s been made public, so I can really delve into people’s past.  Then I was looking for L….  I couldn’t find her facebook, but I know shes on Myspace; so I messaged her.  I know I shouldn’t have but I was feeling homesick, so I thought what the hell.  I sent off this long message and ranted on, it felt good.  L is the only woman who my mother ever approved of… it says a lot I know.  L was the first girl that I ever really felt in love with.  The relationship has had a lot of baggage, but a while back we made up.  I think we’re both in different places.  Normally I won’t even consider a woman with a kid, but her well she’s different.  I’ve never met a woman who could even come close to L.  I have such high standards I know, but I guess part me compares every woman to L.  I guess I’ll get an email today or tomorrow… most likely right now when I check my messages.