Me and Preston Ponders

For a long time I’ve tried to be like everyone else.  I’ve tried college (its still the backup plan if everything goes wrong), I’ve tried having a normal job, and I’ve tried having a normal relationship; I’ve failed at all of them.  The fact is, is that I can never be normal because I’m not.  I’m not the guy who gets married, has kids and lives in the suburbs, and works 9 to 5… I’m the guy that you read about in the paper who’s done something amazing and unforgettable.  I’m the guy who makes your life just a little bit easier, because I risk my life to make the world better.  I’m not saying that I’m some super spy or that I hold the world in my hands.  It’s just that I can’t except the world for the way it is, I want it to be better than it is.  I’ve risked my life to do what I thought was right and while most people may never know it; I do, and for me at least, it helps to keep me going.  For too long I’ve tried to keep myself and my secret life separate, but now I know that’s impossible.  I’m not two people, I’m one.  While I look normal, my skill set isn’t exactly something you can pick up in school; and for that reason alone is why I have to be me and finally accept that.  There’s something big on the horizon and it’s been brewing for a while.  At minimum I’ll write myself into the history books for catching a notorious criminal, likes the world has never seen; all the while rewriting the history books in the process.  When the dust settles I’m not quite sure who I’ll be, the only thing I know is that for once it will be all me.