I Just Can’t Believe

The one day that I need to have a working internet connection, I don’t.  This upcoming week is finals and I’m screwed.  The finals aren’t even worth that much, but without a internet connection I can’t get the info I need to complete my missing work.  I know that I should have done this weeks ago, or even doing it when I first heard about it at the beginning of the semester.  I’m so screwed, I figured I could work something out if I turned in everything tomorrow morning along with my notes.  So my long term plans this holiday season apparently are going to include appling to some other schools.  I just hate this and its like nothing is working for me.  Plus I haven’t been able to write this whole semester because of school.  If I could just have the time to write and I could get published, life would be simpler.  Honestly, if I had a book deal going I wouldn’t even be going to school.  People I know that have english degrees typically don’t even work in the field let alone publishing a book; these days most are unemployed.  Then the people who have published books, hell they don’t even have degrees half of the time.  Maybe flunking out cause I was sick is just what I need, who knows.  I’m hoping that I can still salvage this somehow, maybe there is some obscure school bylaw that allows me a do over, or hell maybe the internet will come back on.  I’m writing this now even though I’ve go no available internet connection… posting later.