Wrapping It All Up

I'm still very sick, but hey it did get me out of class for a couple of weeks; sometimes you have to take the wins where you can find them. I can't remember if I said that J (of M and J) is in drug rehab, I ran into her to give her a check that she had dropped outside her flat. Hell, if it wasn't for her daughter being right there, it might have even scored me a lay. Honestly, she looked shocked about how the check ended up outside, although she knew it was missing. Maybe J had taken it and that's how he steals money from her... at this point who knows. The girl I've been chatting up with for a couple of weeks (the one I turned into a pot dealer by the way, if I didn't tell that story, I'll make sure to include it in a later post) has announced on her Facebook status that she met a really cool guy when she was out (not me), and honestly I'm glad. I may not always find that my life is peaches and cream, but it's my life none the less. Let's call her B1 since she won't be talked about much longer. B1 wants to get married (she's 19) and she's been engaged twice already. I take care of my elderly mom, and even though sometimes she really pisses me off, she's still my mom and I wouldn't trade her for the world. I know what happens to people to in nursing homes and I couldn't bear to do that to my mom, B1 seemed to imply that when the day comes I should put her first. I lied and said that I would. Also I told B1 one of my hopes and dreams and she seemed to knock them down rather quickly as silly (although she put in much nicer words). In B1's world, people are ordinary (at least the ones she knows) and nothing really of interest ever happens to them; they don't become famous, they're not heroes, and most importantly they give up on the things that help them get up in the morning. Dreams for B1 are for the next generation, for with them lies the hopes and dreams and the chances that B1 never had. Honestly I'm glad that B1 has meet someone other than me; cause now I don't have to give the whole it's not you, it's me speech. I've had the thing ready to go for what feels like weeks, but I never had the courage to send it. As for myself, even if I'm not always happy... I've still got my dreams.