Steamed Corn

For lunch I had one of those microwave steam bags of corn, it was wonderful.  I mixed in 2 tablespoons of butter for the whole family size bag, then I ate it out of a large pyrex measuring cup, and it was awesome.  I could eat one of those bags everyday for lunch.  I really only eat 2 meals a day and having steamed corn everyday sounds nice; also its super easy to heat up.  I feel better today, and I finished watching Chuck and again it was awesome.  I always use to have this list about the type of woman I thought I would end up with in the end.  I like to think most people whether they’ll ever admit it or not; think about their future spouse and what they’ll be like.  After watching Chuck I feel like my life has been opened up and idea of a cute polish girl (the actress who plays sarah walker is polish) being my wife or even if my wife is from a different country seems okay now.  It never was before, and I always thought I’d marry a girl from the motherland.  I’d say what country, but it might lead to someone figuring out who I am so I won’t.  All of sudden my wall of limits has been pushed out of the way a little bit and I feel more open to what could happen and who I think I could be happy with.  With V, I had that problem; we were both two very different people and she didn’t mind.  She didn’t care one bit who I was and what my family was like, she openly said she loved me and I responded back with “I like you too”.  I regret that day, and even though I did reconnect with her for a little bit a while back; she’s different and I’m different.  I know that ship has sailed.  She has a child and is now in a relationship… not with me of course.  I was immature then about what I was willing to accept and a part of me thought I was settling when I wasn’t… I was getting an upgrade.  I finally feel like I’ve learned something from that moment.